So  it has been  while since  I  posted  last. In all honesty  my illness  is at the  point  where  I  do  not  want   to  do anything ,  I  hate being  up  on second and  down the  next what  about you  guys  do  ride the mental coaster ?

Bipolar Statistics

This  has  some really  good info


http://www.bipolarsymptoms.org/Basics/Disorder-Statistics.html

Trying to tell people you love that you have bipolar

 You know  I  thought it would be easy  to expinle my  bipolar  to  people. Some time people  call you  nuts  and  say  "o that  explains it." There  has been times when  I  want to  scream my  head of and  say  fuck you, But then  I  have  to  stop my  self .

Is it  just me  or  do your  parents try  to explain  your  mental  illness  as  something that  just  gos away, the older you  get.  I  think it  is  the  oppiste   I think that it  guess worse when you  get  older.

I  found some  sites that gives  a  little help with this  whole thing
http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/667969/how_to_tell_someone_you_have_bipolar.html?cat=72

http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/667969/how_to_tell_someone_you_have_bipolar.html?cat=72

i  hope these  help
with  Crazy love Felisha

we are not alone

I think that some people that  are told they have  Bipolar, Feel that  we  are alone, and that  we have nothing  to  offer to society. But  here is  a list  that shows  us that  many   people that  have  made it  through.

http://www.mental-health-today.com/bp/famous_people.htm

It's  hard when the people around you  make you  illness in  a joke, idk right now i  fell worried and scared. 

things that make me smile.

lately the bad  days  are comeing  at  me  from left and right, like Micky Mouse in Fantasia here check it out

http://media.photobucket.com/image/fantasia/fravacu/fantasia.jpg?o=6

So because of my  moods latly  my therapist  thinks I  should make a list 

Things that make me  smile

1. God 
2. The bible
3. Stake and potatoes
4. Hello kitty 
5. Make-up
6. A nice pair of converse 
7. Pizza
8. Singing
9. Writing 
10. Smell of  Lilacs
11. Purple and Orange
12. My friends
13. The forest
14. waterfalls
15. fairy's 
16. Comfy sheets      

water spill

well this morning  I  awake  and  staying  awake because It was  cold  water  from my nightstand . i  was  going  wash my  sheets  today  and I  guess My  cat  thought that  she  wanted to do them.


Today  is  going to  be the first  time I  see my  therapist . I  think  that  I  should  bring  to her the stuff  I  have  been writing. I went  from   butterfly   to  caterpillar. also need  to  tell  my college  to  drop me

It is  going to be on of those  days where I  just  want to scream .